Under Construction

I mentioned a few changes were coming to the blog and work is under way. Over the past six months I have gone through many different things in an attempt to pursue my goals. I was beginning to feel very frustrated with my progress and decided to take some time to really enjoy life and reflect on what I truly wanted to accomplish. I was not being completely honest with myself and it showed in the number of changes to my eating plan and the large number of workouts missed.

In the last few months I have had time to think about what brings joy to my day and what types of things keep my feet firmly planted on the road to success. Part of that involved taking the time to close myself in a room with a mirror and honestly assess where I am, how I got there and then really thinking about why I wanted a change. To be perfectly honest, I don't dance well. I'm not a very coordinated person. Right now my goal is to prepare for the Fitness Atlantic Ms. Bikini competition next spring. When I have the info on the 2011 competition, I will be sure to update you.

I came away from this exercise with a fresh perspective and hopefully a much more honest view of what I actually want to accomplish. The most valuable lesson I learned in the six months since I started this journey is that this requires absolute commitment. Eating the right foods or working out on a casual basis is not what you need to effect major change. If I had done the reverse, ie ocasionally skipped a workout, occasionally vegged out on the couch or occasionally ate crap - well I wouldn't be here. It required years of abusing myself to get to this state of ill health and thinking that doing well one or two days or even weeks at a time is just not enough.

I have some fresh ideas about how I intend to accomplish the monumental task of retraining my brain to stop the abuse and self sabotage and instead promote health and happiness for myself. I also have a few new tools at my disposal that I will be sharing the info on over the next few days. Please be patient during these transition time. I hope you continue to enjoy following me on this journey.