Get You Butt in Gear

Whew! It's been awhile since my last post . . . and my last work. I have been going through a period of deep turmoil in my personal life. The decision to leave my full time teaching position and enter a postbac program was a tough one. My days are long and the financial consequences are often difficult to swallow. I started this journey knowing it would not be easy but even the most motivated of us can be sidetracked. Thankfully the storm has passed for now and I am back on track.
In terms of my fitness goals, I didn't gain any weight during my hiatus but I didn't lose any either. I decided I need a little more structure so I joined weight watchers this past weekend. I thought I was down for the count this morning due to severe menstrual cramps but in retrospect I think it was just the kick in the rear I needed. Consuming processed foods with whatever fillers and chemicals they add in there and not exercising is a recipe for disaster. I think I had months of relatively pain free cycles and forgot what it felt like. Well as I lay in bed writhing and crying I decided I could spend the day like that or I could grit my teeth and suck it up, knowing my choices landed me there.
I got up. Not only did I get up, I exercised anyway. I only managed learn and burn but I am proud of myself for getting up. It still hurts. It hurts badly but I am now finished my breakfast so I am going to hit the shower and get to work. I looked down at my lower body while checking my form and realized that the rolls and cellulite were as much a result of my choices as the cramps. It's time to take responsibility, knowing that my actions each day have consequences. In a few months the application process will be over. Where will I stand? If I continue on this path, I will be worse off than where I started. Still not working on my PhD and more poor than ever before. I have hours of meetings this afternoon and science waits for no man- or in this case woman. Keep moving forward and keep pressing play. Thanks for reading. Later!